Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Duch's Verdict
Monday, May 31, 2010
More Than a Number
April 17 - July 25 2010
Wed. - Sun. 10 am - 5 pm
$8 Adults; $6 Seniors, Students, Children; free for children under 6
American Textile History Museum
491 Dutton St.
Lowell, MA
www.athm.org
Monday, May 24, 2010
3rd Annual Taste of Southeast Asia
Thank you to Junenoire Mitchell for these wonderful photos of the event.
Thank you to all of our volunteers!
Nicole Aiossa
Patricia Alejandro
Rebecca Bowes
Pisea Chea
James Christie
Courtney Fukuda
Michelle Hom
Bin Bin Jiang
Gabriel Grant
Andrea Kirk
Robert Li
Colin Lim
Daniel Littlewood
Junenoire Mitchell
Eric Morse
Etan Ofrane
Charis Shafer
Nick Shelton
Kathy Song
Heidi Steinberg
Mabel Tso
Nicole Velasco
Linn Yen
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Tanzania - Genocide Prevention Forum

I just returned from Tanzania where I spoke at the Second Regional Forum on Genocide Prevention, sponsored by the governments of Switzerland, Argentina and Tanzania. The private conference was full of dignitaries including Dr. Francis Deng, Special Advisor to the UN Secretary General on the Prevention of Genocide and Mass Atrocities, the former President of Tanzania Benjamin Mkapa, and Dr. Edward Luck, Special Advisor to the UN Secretary General on the Responsibility to Protect.

It was a huge honor to be invited to speak to these policy makers about Cambodia and genocide prevention. I've never been in a room in which every time someone opens their mouth, they must begin with, "Excellencies, Ambassadors, Ladies and Gentlemen."
(from left to right: me; Eduardo Acevedo Diaz; Director General for Human Rights ad Interim, Argentina; Rodolfo Matarollo; Advisor of the Ministry of Justice and Human Rights, Argentina; Edward Luck , Special Advisor to the UN Secretary General on the Responsibility to Protect)
I came to respect the mature dialogue among many African countries about the need to prevent genocide in their region. It was a very encouraging symbol of progress.
Thank you so much to Prof. Andrea Bartoli and Mo Bleeker, Director of Political Affairs, Switzerland for extending the honor to me.
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Rosie Radio

I'm going to be interviewed about New Year Baby and Khmer Legacies on Rosie Radio on Monday, Feb. 15. Here's information about where to tune in:
Listen to Rosie Radio
Mon - Fri: 10 am ET - 12 pm ET
Rebroadcasts (All times ET):
Mon - Fri: 12 pm - 2 pm & 8 pm - 10 pm
Sat - Sun: 8 am - 10 am, 2 pm - 4 pm
& 8 pm - 10 pm
on SIRIUS Ch. 102 & XM Ch. 155
Listen 24/7 Online
SIR Ch. 815 | XMRO Ch. 94
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Check out the new newyearbaby.net!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
3 Generations

The organization 3 Generations also records stories of survivors of genocide and mass atrocities from all over the world. They are highlighting the work of Khmer Legacies on their website this month. We're hoping to create a collaboration with 3 Generations, an organization started by Jane Wells, the producer of The Devil Came on Horseback. 3 Generations will edit a short video of some of our testimonies and we'll help them transcribe some of their Cambodian videos. You can read the treatment here.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Never Forget

Check out this very well-written and powerful article written by Mike Patterniti of GQ Magazine. I had the chance to meet him in New Haven a few years ago when he was interviewing Prof. Ben Kiernan for the article.
The article is about the question of justice following the Cambodian genocide. You can read it here.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Witness Highlights Khmer Legacies

Saturday, October 31, 2009
Podcast with US Holocaust Museum

Monday, October 19, 2009
Screening at UConn


Congratulations Bou Sonith!

I am so proud to announce that one of my board members, Sonith Peou, has been honored by the Robert Wood Johnson Foundation with a Community Health Leader Award. Here's an excerpt from RWJF's press release: "his efforts to assure access to culturally competent health services for the large Cambodian-American community in Lowell, Mass. The Metta Health Center integrates primary medical care, behavioral health services and refugee health assessments with traditional medical practices such as Buddhist monk consultations and traditional healing, acupuncture and nutrition counseling. Peou’s leadership and tenacious outreach efforts over eight years have resulted in a 150 percent increase in Southeast Asian patients, with the Metta Health Center now serving more than 5,000 patients."

I attended the gala in Washington, DC at the Mayflower Hotel where the awards were handed out and a video about each fellow was premiered (http://www.communityhealthleaders.org/news_features/article/56153).
I am especially proud because I nominated him for the award. Congratulations Bou Sonith!
Monday, September 07, 2009
Genocide Documentary Filmmakers/Lovers of Life!

I had the extraordinary opportunity to speak on a panel called "Genocide Survivor Testimony in Documentary Film" with some very lauded documentary filmmakers at the USC Film School. Being asked by the Shoah Foundation to present and then of course to sit next to Emmy and Oscar winners was a huge honor.
We covered many subjects including the ethical and moral concerns of the video testimony process, the maintenance of video archives, and powerful role of documentary films in genocide activism.
After the panel all of us went to dinner together and dared each other to not talk about genocide for the entire evening. Though we strayed a few times to learn about our each others various "war stories," we mostly succeeded. Being socially conscious doesn't preclude being fun-loving too. I got home way too late that night.
You can watch a video to the panel discussion here.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Finally . . . We're Engaged!

To satisfy all of your curiosities, here is how it went down:
Charles and I met at the top of Duomo in Florence. We were both backpacking alone through Italy when I turned around and asked him to take my picture.
Well two weeks ago, Charles took me on a surprise date to the largest cathedral in New York City, St. John Divine. Under the dome of the cathedral, with a stringed orchestra in the background, he proposed. I was not entirely surprised, but was deeply moved.
Monday, April 27, 2009
A Time to Remember

Although I have had the opportunity to speak many times in groups of 20-500, my parents are relatively meek immigrant Americans who have always shied away from the spotlight. The extent of their public speaking has come after a few screenings of New Year Baby when they answer questions from the audience.
My mother spoke briefly in English and then said a prayer in Khmer to remember the millions of lives lost during the Cambodian genocide.
I'm very proud of them. They loved being a part of this event.
I also had the chance to meet Carl Wilkens, one of my personal heroes. Just two weeks early, I had

Amherst. Carl saved over 500 people during the
genocide in Rwanda, and he was the only American in the entire country during the 4 month tragedy. You can read more his story here.
We also joined 80 members of the Cambodian community to commemorate the 34th anniversary of the Cambodian genocide at a solemn candlelight vigil. We shared stories of our loved ones, our sorrows and even our anger at the lack of justice.

Friday, March 27, 2009
San Francisco

Recently Charles and I returned from San Francisco where I spoke on a symposium panel about refugee rights with the Rotary Club . It was a well-organized and well-run event. It's obvious that the Rotarians in San Francisco play their part to help alleviate suffering in the world.
While I was there, I recorded the interview of Denise Tan's mother, Sotheavy, about her amazing survival story. Denise made wonderful introductions for me to the Cambodian community in the Bay Area including the dynamic community leader Elizabeth Sy who founded Banteay Srei and social worker Limyi Heng.

Also through Denise, we met David Nakabayashi, Creative
Director at Industrial Light and Magic. He gave us a private tour of George Lucas's amazing special effects studio. It was a great thrill and we've already made many of our friends and family jealous. Thanks to David and his staff for their generosity.

And thank you to our wonderful friends Stephanie Morimoto and Matt King for hosting us in their beautiful home.
Thursday, March 05, 2009
Focus Group in Lowell
With the help of Harry Schnur from the Lynn Community Health Center, Khmer Legacies Boardmembers Sonith Peou and Samkhann Khoeun, Linda Sou of Lowell Community Health, we conducted two separate focus groups - one with the older generation and one with the younger generation.
The reactions we got to the work of Khmer Legacies was overwhelming positive. Yes, this is important work and someone should be doing it. Yet there seemed to be so many questions about readiness. Are older survivors ready to talk? Is the younger generation ready to listen?
I began to question the nature of leadership itself. Is it the role of Khmer Legacies to draw the community toward a higher level of consciousness and contribution? Is that a presumptious and potentially dangerous position given the trauma the community has faced. Is the best way to serve the community to challenge it?
Any thoughts from you would be helpful . . .
Sunday, February 22, 2009
NACA

I remember the first time I entered the marketplace. Housed in a huge hotel ballroom, hundreds of booths lined the room, all of them featuring some act which tried to catch the attention of overwhelmed and overstimulated college students.
I could not believe it but I was literally pitching my genocide work next to a Build-a-Bear workshop and live pythons. How could I compete? For a moment, I wished that I was marketing something sexy and appealing.
At the conference I heard Caryl M. Stern, the President of the U.S. Fund for UNICEF, give an emotional talk about her work to save the lives of millions of children around the world. She gave a powerful appeal for the room to commit their lives to something bigger.
The talk reminded me that in terms of emotional impact, we have a huge advantage over all the hundreds of confections that are peddled at NACA. Ideas like justice and healing hit you deep and stay with you. They hold the possibility of changing the course of your life.
Thank you to all of the students I met last week! I hope to see you again.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Khmer Health Advocates
They both voiced strong support for the work of Khmer Legacies and we hope to find ways to use their networks to record testimonies in Connecticut. Mary told me that although Cambodians make up about half of all torture victims in the United States, Cambodians are not categorically recognized as torture victims by the UN. Cambodians themselves, have a hard time articulating their experience of starvation, over work, and sometimes worse as torture. As a result, many resources that could have been directed to serve them are not.
It reminded me that this work is important - if only to document and acknowledge the lives to Cambodian survivors. As long as we are not able to give voice to these experiences, the community still suffers from an undistinguished pain.
Monday, January 19, 2009
First Board Meeting
And yet I had all of these anxieties and fears about the board members being disengaged in the work. I have heard so many horror stories of ineffective boards. I also feared that I am not a good enough leader to warrant the energy and trust of these important community leaders who spend their time doing such important work.
No matter how frightening, I had to pull the curtain behind the operations of Khmer Legacies since inception. But Jane Jung, a Yale MFA student who is helping me manage the board, reminded me that the board members want to see me and Khmer Legacies succeed.
And that was exactly the tone of the meeting. I am so glad to know they have my back!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
EG

I also met the most amazing woman named Tan Le. She's a Vietnamese Australian woman who co-founded a company called Emotiv (www.emotiv.com). Using the latest developments of neuro-technology, her company has developed a headset which facilitates non-consciou

The conference inspired me to take risks and play a big game with my life. The presenters and participants play at the highest level in several areas of the their life. To wit Mike Hawley - not only was he an MIT professor and entrepreneur, but also a champion of the Van Cliburn competition!
Friday, December 05, 2008
An Honor in Los Angeles

I was honored to be recognized by Jewish World Watch for the work I have done in launching Khmer Legacies, and was pleased to have the opportunity to speak to students and community leaders from the Cambodian community at the award ceremony.
Monday, March 31, 2008
A Courageous Soul

My friend Bou Dith Pran died yesterday.
His life was depicted in the film, the Killing Fields. For most Americans, the first and perhaps only time, they heard about the Cambodian genocide was through his story.
I met Bou for the first time when I was 22 years old as a recent college graduate attending the Asian American Journalists Association convention. When I introduced myself to him, he was so excited to meet another Cambodian American journalist that he immediately took me by the hand to introduce me around to his friends. He's a hero in that community and immediately became my best advocate.
I invited him to dinner with my family because he was missing some good Southeast Asian cooking. At dinner my sister bluntly told him that she though her experience during the Pol Pot time was much worse than what was depicted in the movie, the Killing Fields. He looked her squarely in the eye and said that he agreed. And in that look, I recognized that there was an understanding.
He will be missed.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Asheville, NC - Keep it Weird

Showed New Year Baby at the Fine Arts Theatre in Asheville, NC last night. Asheville is wonderful little mountain town with lefty tendencies, a lively art scene and eccentric townies.
The turnout was good and the audience seemed really moved and engaged with the film. A recurring theme in these screenings has been the one Cambodian in the audience. None of the stops on my Southern Circuit tour are home to large Cambodian communities. But there's always one.
He was very moved by the film and shared with the audience his family's story. When his mother was three months pregnant, her husband was killed by the Khmer Rouge. Instead of being named the "lucky child," he was repeatedly called a curse by his own mother. At the end of the night, all I could do was give him a hug.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Welcome to the South . . .
We had a modest crowd, but one audience member in particular made it all worth it. A Cambodian American woman in her 50's was there with a van-load of her Anglo American sponsors from a local Presbyterian church.
Her story was very similar to my family's: surviving the Khmer Rouge, adopted surviving extended family, fleeing to Thai refugee camps. She was very moved by the film and told me about her son who is very near my age. He harbors, she fears, a surprising anger projected toward Cambodia and life in general.
It reminded me that even the second generation is effected by the trauma of the Khmer Rouge time whether it is expressed in guilt, over-achievement, or anger. What makes it worse is that often times, we cannot identify what is at the root of these emotions.
I gave her a copy of the film and told her that perhaps her son would like to see the film, hoping it would spark a new kind of conversation. She seemed grateful.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
A New Year . . .
2008 will also be a pivot year for me - channeling all the energy from New Year Baby to Khmer Legacies - my new project to videotape testimonies of Cambodian genocide survivors. We're starting by videotaping testimonies in the New York City with the Cambodian community there.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Coming a Long Way
We invited some students from the Bronx Ghetto Film School who filled up the first two rows. They had helped us test screen an early rough cut of the film and it was great to invite them to see the final product. When I re-entered the theatre as the credits started to roll, I heard the tough Bronx teenagers sniffling and saw them wiping their eyes. When I met them almost a year ago, their only reference to Cambodia came from the Dave Chappelle Show.
I took questions and made an appeal for donations to support the outreach campaign. I felt very confident about the ask, mainly from new coaching I had gotten from public speaking coach Jeremy Nash (http://www.communicationatwork.net/index.htm). I came into my first meeting with him thinking that I would get coached on where to put my hands and how to speak eloquently. But Jeremy taught me that it's less important what you say than who you're being in that moment. Allowing my true self to shine through is what allows you to connect with people. That's what makes people magnetic. Jeremy was a kind, compassionate and generous coach. After one session with him, I don't think I will go into any meeting with the same old "tools" again.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Happy to be Home
They are both still in pain, but they are treating that appropriately. They're grateful for the love and support of friends and family nearby who are cooking dinner and doing grocery runs for them.
James and Amy leave Bangkok for Orange County soon as well.
Charles and I leave for home tomorrow after a New Year Baby screening tonight in Phnom Penh. Charles is less sore.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Together
It was amazing what a strong bond we created in the past ten days.
On Friday Feb. 16th, Charles, his parents Rich & Marcia and our guest Ron Ardres were in a vehicle accident on a dirt road from Koh Ker to Preah Vihear. They were in an SUV when the driver lost control in a fish tail situation. The vehicle left the road and rolled over twice. It came to a rest down a small rise, on it's side and facing the direction from which it came.
Only Charles was wearing a seat belt and walked away from the accident. He was hit on the head by the collapsing roof but no bleeding. He then directed a valiant evacuation operation. The others were badly hurt and at the time, we did not know what kind of internal injuries they suffered.
Charles’s parents suffered spine and head trauma. That evening they were evacuated to a Bangkok hospital.
While Charles, KG, James (Charles’s brother), Amy (James’ long time partner) and I were at the hospital, the rest of our guests convened at the Hanumanalaya.
Later they told us that at dinner, though there was plenty of space at 4 tables, all thirteen crowded around a single table for eight. They couldn’t bear to be separated that night.
While Rich & Marcia are in pain, all doctors agree to expect a full recovery in time. Ron hurt his foot and prefers to treat it himself. Charles of course keeps ticking. James & Amy are still in Bangkok with Rich & Marcia.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
From Cambodia
So far, we have two screenings set up - one in Phnom Penh and one in Siem Reap. The organizations seem to be very excited about the possibilities of collaboration.
I have not been in Phnom Penh for two years and it's like I can see the city changing before my eyes. There are more cars here now and ever before. Today I saw a red Hummer and a yellow Miata. There's construction everywhere.
I confess, I cannot wait until our guests arrive from America and England. I love playing host to tourists. It's like being able to experience a place for the first time again through their eyes.
Our host, Nick Ray and Kulikar Sotho, could not be more generous. They have made our stay incredibly easy and elegant. Nick and Kulikar run one of five companies, including Hanuman Tourism (www.hanumantourism.com). They are Cambodia experts and wonderful people. I am grateful to call them friends.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
All is Well
Sometimes I would feel exhilerated, like this was the beginning to my real life. Like I was ready to take off like a rocket booster. Other times, I would ride the subway and look at all the New Yorkers around me, wondering how come they can be comfortable and secure and I cannot.
My mother, who is part of the minority of people in this country who have experienced losing everything, said to me, "I can't believe I have a daughter who might be homeless." That comment didn't help things.
But what I've resolved for myself is that there's a real difference between getting paid for your performance versus getting paid for your time. I'll never measured for my performance in this particular job. It's like a golden glass ceiling.
So here I go stepping into the unknown. And I choose to step into it from all is and will be well.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
There is no crying in doc filmmaking!
While I was editing New Year Baby with my editor Sandra Christie, we sometimes would talk about why I made the film. And I've told her more often than not that I didn't make it to win awards. I told her, "If we don't get into Sundance, I won't even cry."
Well, I lied.
A few days ago, we found out that though the programmers' repeatedly expressed respect for the film, we didn't get an invitation. As I wrote an email to our crew, I shed a few tears, while searching for everyone's email in my contact list. I realized that I wasn't crying out of disappointment that the most famous indie film festival in the world passed on us. I felt like I let our crew down.
Everyone who worked with us did so with sacrifices -- and they were usually monetary. I wanted to be able to show my gratitude for their talent by bringing this film to the most visible level of success, so their work could be highlighted. And what Charles and I realized is that not getting into Sundance keeps us hungry. We're even more motivated to make this film a creative and business success. And judging from the overwhelming response at IDFA, the sky is the limit.
Little did we know IDFA audiences would rate NYB among the top 10 of the more than 173 international films here. I am very proud.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
And the winner is . . .

Recently, Charles and I saw the movie Little Miss Sunshine. We both laughed and cried and talked about it for hours afterwards.
The moral of the story is that life is a series of beauty contests. It occured to me that Sundance is just another beauty contest. And I didn't come up with the rules. I didn't even sign up for them.
I realized that the main reason I would be disappointed if we don't get in is for our crew. Everyone has worked so hard to make this film as good as it can be. They really have invested their hearts into it.
But I know the film will find its audience - whether it happens at Sundance or in a village in Cambodia.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Speaking of Genocide
It occured to me that Cambodian Americans aren't organized to tell the history of the Khmer Rouge. Therefore they're not organized to advocate for the prevention of genocide.
As Cambodians, what is the conversation we bring to the world? I don't think we have one. Not yet anyway.
Friday, July 28, 2006
Speak Your Peace


This past week, I attended SEARAC's (Southeast Asian Resource Action Center) Leadership Training in DC. Over three days, we developed an advocacy agenda and took it to Capitol Hill. I couldn't believe how easy it was to waltz right into Capitol Hill and speak your peace. If the Congressperson's staff is smart, they should be eager to hear what you have to say.
Our group of six spoke to Sen. Hillary Clinton and Rep. Al Green's office about the problem of mental health in the Southeast Asian community.
I met a lot of wonderful people at the training. And out of it, two projects have been birthed:
1. a Cambodian American women's professional group called Bong Srei: Khmer Sisters
2. a how-to guide on how to honor your parents in the traditional Khmer way.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
What It Takes To Make a Film
Yesterday Charles and I created the credits list for the film. There were 194 lines! We couldn't possibly acknowledge everyone who has ever volunteered at a fundraising party or given an hour of time.
I saw in the document the support it took to make this film happen. How presumptous of me to ever think that I am alone.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Go Mets!
It was a great chance to see Leslie Morioka and Raj Gandesha outside of a conference room. It was a great opportunity to acknowledge the Stamos brothers for being who they are for the world.
Mets lost, but we left with a high.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
What's a Film Without an Intern?
Friday, May 12, 2006
A Flood of Support
We were racking our brains, trying to think of a writing consultant. We came up with no one.
We sent out an email to filmmakers on our list.
I got 34 responses with people offering their help or referring me to someone else. Many of the people were strangers who totally got turned on to our project from the website. So many people want to contribute to the film. It's wonderful to feel so supported.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Soundtrack to My Life
Monday, May 01, 2006
Friday the Dog
Monday, April 24, 2006
Thank you to Patrick and Phillip


I'm posting this thank you to two friends. - Socheata
"Yesterday, Socheata Poeuv (Director of New Year Baby) spoke to a room of senior UN Officers and several embassy diplomats at an event hosted by the Soros Foundation's Open Society Justice Initiative. The other three speakers included the Cambodian Ambassador to the UN and two crafters of the upcoming Khmer Rouge Tribunal. Socheata was invited to both speak and screen the 9 min trailer of the film. This was an opportunity to introduce our mission and the film's quality to the highest level diplomats working in Cambodia and the world on human rights.
When I arrived, one of the organizers handed me a projector he didn't know how to operate. No one knew how to operate it. There was also no DVD player. We didn't know if the projector was even compatible with my computer. I couldn't make it work within the 30 min. to start.
Then friends and doc filmmakers Philip Eisenstein and Patrick Horner arrived only to support our work. They not only spent the time hunched over the gear to make it work, Patrick pulled out his own laptop to sync with the unexplained projector. They got it to work briefly and then when it was time for Soch's talk the lamp bulb would not turn on. In that 12th floor room of diplomats overlooking the UN Building, while others listened to the conflicts of international law. Patrick and Philip sat in the front row pressing every button on the projector, rebooting the computer and everything they (and I) could think of. They got it to work before the end of the event!
The crowd laughed and cried. The hosts later told us the trailer was the high light of the event. A multi-Emmy award winning documentary maker passed Soch his card. The Justice Initiative expressed interest in using the finished film for their outreach in Cambodia and Socheata has a new relationship with diplomatic human rights community.
This is all possible because Philip and Patrick showed up and were totally unreasonable and unstoppable"
-Charles Vogl
Producer
Broken English Productions
Friday, April 07, 2006
California Dreamin'
Just returned from a visit to LA. Tuesday I met with the UCLA United Khmer Students Association. The gathering was an intimate one amid a rare rainstorm in Southern California. I was excited to find that the students were visibly moved by the trailer. Some of them shared that this project inspired them to interview their parents about their survival story. Thanks to Seng Peng for setting this up.
On Wednesday, I met with three staffers from the Shoah Foundation at USC. Thank you, Chaim Singer-Frankes for your support and encouragement. I wanted to learn everything I could about their process with a mind toward developing a project modelled after Shoah to archive videotape testimonies from Khmer Rouge survivors. What they have done is astounding and incredibly impressive. They have recorded 52,000 interviews from Holocaust survivors. All are catalogued and indexed to be keyword searchable. What a task!
I asked them how many funds they acquired in seed money to start the project. All three staffers piped in at once -- anywhere from $11 million to $100 million to be exact. I became so intimidated by the project I created.
Then I remembered that 2.5 years ago when I started this documentary, I thought I could finish it in one year and with a mere $75,000. Sometimes naivete is the access to courage.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
She's a Brickhouse
The subject of my fim -- the story of how my family survived the Khmer Rouge genocide -- took place a generation ago. Like a number of docs, we have the challenge of covering events for which there is no video. I'm not a big fan of the slow push into a black and white photo a la Ken Burns.
There is one anecdote, I'm especially keen on illustrating. A childhood moment when my mother refused to tell me anything about her past and suddenly put a brickwall. But this is a film; what would I show? Today, the guys at IMI (International Masonry Institute) in Long Island City came to my rescue by constructing a brickwall for us to shoot!
Thank you to Dennis Holloway, Kenny LaValle, and Alfredo Reyes.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
First Day Live for the NYB Blog!
Welcome to a blog about the making of my documentary film New Year Baby. In the future, you can come here to follow my journey from idea to PBS!